SMITTEN: lunacy glue for the soul.

Song: Portastatic - In The Manner of Anne Frank...this song describes how I feel about journals. They scare me. I've never written down exactly what I mean to say and what I want to say...I'm afraid. Afraid of what? Who? I don't know. Even in my most private of journals I can't write my innermost feelings...maybe this online journal is a way to overcome that fear? What a perfect song for me.

Portastatic - In the Manner of Anne Frank

if i kept a diary
that would be just one more thing
to stop me in my tracks
nostalgia keeps me comin back
if i kept a diary
and our parents haven't found it
and if you knew we're not we'd be fired
as their sons and daughters
i will not keep a diary
because someone would might read it
i have a fear of being found out
as someone who does not need it


I will not write things down
I will not write this down


If i kept a diary
it would not be published
in the manner of anne frank
writing from her attic deck
if i kept a diary
i fear that you might find it
and ridicule for all times
for even having tried it


I will not write things down
I will not write this down

...
I cannot write things down.